I am very sorry.  Your father is so proud of you and so happy that you are having a service to remember him.  My dad passed away just 2 months ago, August 28th.  It was on my parents 28th wedding anniversary.  My dad had a heart attack and I still can't understand or come to peace with it.  I miss him so much and I can't get it out of my head.  I really don't know how to handle it.  I have been seeing an advisor to talk to someone, it is just so hard.  Do you have any advice as to how you handled it.  Again I am so sorry.  Your dad is looking down smiling at you right now.  Best wishes

Lindsay